Repeating Nightmares!

Its been a long time right baby? Life has been busy for Mom.
Well not pleasantly busy, but stress fully busy. Papas accident, and the subsequent events, his parents scorning, financial issues there are tonnes of things on my mind now. The only time I smile is when I feel your kicks little one.
I wanted a nest for you, a cute little one of our own. But events pertaining to that has left mummy numb with pain. I am worried how all of this affects you. I drain myself out trying to help Papa and make things smoother for him. But I dont think he even realises what it does to me. I was stupid so far baby, to be putting his health and concern ahead of yours. Mummy promises that wont happen again. You will be my first priority. And that is the reason mummy is contemplating staying away from him for the rest of the period that am carrying you. Papa is upset with his parents and he feels guilty about that. So he extends his hatred to mummy and my parents too. That way he hides from his guilt of being angry with his own parents. The happiest time of mummys life has turned out to be a nightmare. I often wonder if God couldnt have given me this tiny little time with you atleast to be a happy period. For your sake, for a healthy Baby!!!!