Repeating Nightmares!

Its been a long time right baby? Life has been busy for Mom.
Well not pleasantly busy, but stress fully busy. Papas accident, and the subsequent events, his parents scorning, financial issues there are tonnes of things on my mind now. The only time I smile is when I feel your kicks little one.
I wanted a nest for you, a cute little one of our own. But events pertaining to that has left mummy numb with pain. I am worried how all of this affects you. I drain myself out trying to help Papa and make things smoother for him. But I dont think he even realises what it does to me. I was stupid so far baby, to be putting his health and concern ahead of yours. Mummy promises that wont happen again. You will be my first priority. And that is the reason mummy is contemplating staying away from him for the rest of the period that am carrying you. Papa is upset with his parents and he feels guilty about that. So he extends his hatred to mummy and my parents too. That way he hides from his guilt of being angry with his own parents. The happiest time of mummys life has turned out to be a nightmare. I often wonder if God couldnt have given me this tiny little time with you atleast to be a happy period. For your sake, for a healthy Baby!!!!

Letter to Ittle Bulbul

To,
Ittle Bulbul
C/o Papa
"Warm and Cosy Nest"
Mama Ittle Mo,
Bangalore, India

Dear Takkdu Makkdu Chakkdu,
Subject: Ummas, ummas, and ummas

Aye ittle pappe, you touched daddy yesterday and let mummy feel your tiny heartbeat. Thanks, and loads of ummas...

Bye
Papa and Mama

Letter to Papa

Papa,

I saw you too and said hi. I am not kicking mummy, am just moving around. But since I have grown bigger and stronger, mummy feels it a lot wen I move. There is not enuf space for me to play inside mummy now. Why is this mummy so small???!!!!

ur tiny one

Names for chakkdus

Mummy has come up with following list of names for you:-). She is drinking Paal kashayam, so that you are big and strong :-)...

Names if you are a prince:-
Aditya (papa likes this the most)
Aryan (papa likes this also. however does not go well with a surname like "krishnan")
Vishal(is combo of "Vijay" and "Shyama". However, we do not like it)

Names if you are a princess:-
Sayuri (papa does not like this at all!!!)
Arya(Papa likes this)
Gayathri(Papa likes this)
Aditi(Papa finds this Ok)
Saaya(Papa is not very Ok with this)

Which one of the names do you like, kunju vaave???

Ummas from Papasi to Takkdu Makkdu Chakkdu(TMC)

Aye Kutti Pappe!!

Kutti Mani,

Papa has not written to you for loooong!!! Chorry!! papa has joined a new job!

We had mommy's 5 month scan on Saturday. We saw you, and again u said Hi to pappasi.

U are very active (touchwood!) and are kicking away at mummy :-).

We love you ittle one. Continue growing inside mummy. See u with lots of love and kisses in July end:-)

Bye
Pappa-si

Apologies little one

Tiny One,

Mommy has been having a couple of rough days lately. At work, sometime with your papa and now with a few other people. I am really concerned of the effect all this must be having on you. I know today was one of the worst days for you. But I promise no matter what I will never put you through that ever again while you are inside me. And if that means having to stay away from your daddy, then that be the case. For me you matter more than anything now. I want you to be strong physically and emotionally. And if I keep crying and upsetting myself like this then how will you be strong?
Mummy is still not sure what happened today afternoon. Having you inside me puts my hormones into major swing. I get upset very easily. But having you inside me also gives the strength to live, the need for staying alive for you little life. Will I tell Papa what happened today? I dont know. Mummy hates to be compared and to be compared with people who I believe are only superficial is very humiliating for me. Mummys love for your daddy is the only only string that keeps me here with him. Sleep now dear. I will try my best to keep myself cheerful and happy.

Spring Kunje:-)

Mommy and Papa saw (and heard) you last Wednesday. Both of us were elated, seeing you jumping all around :-). So we will call you "spring kunje" or "spring kunjus" You said "hi" to papa-ittle one(ummmaaa)...Doctor aunty said that you are doing fine. Your mommy dear is feeling much better now.

Yesterday we went and saw your aunty and your mommy's other relatives . There was a small kunju vaava there. Papa gave the small bundle a lot of kisses..When will you also be with papa, to receive my kisses? :-)....

Today is papa's birthday. Say "Happy birthday" to papa:-).

We have the following names for you: Aditya or Aryan if you are a prince. Aditi, Saaya, or Arya if you are a princess :-)

Now you sleep , my very ittle and tiny one..ummaa